I've been trying to think of something interesting to blog about. I have no pictures to post, I'm all caught up from the ones on my computer. I wish I was a witty writer, but I just mostly blog about the things we do, less about my thoughts. So I thought I'd attempt that a bit.
For the past week or 2, I've taken a 30 minute name most days. It seems to happen around 2pm. Just before I go get the boys at school, and time for a little downtime for Alyssa. I'll put on a short show for her, plop down and snooze for 30. It is so helpful as I'm finding I'm just not lasting through the day as I've been able to before. My body is hurting more, I get lots of stomach aches from food that I eat, and I just hit a wall.
Today I didn't get that. Got the boys, came home...did homework, jobs, they played a bit, then around 4:15 we all sat down to read some books together. WOW, does that make me sleepy. No matter how much inflection and excitement I put into the story, it just makes me tired. I love to have my kids cuddle around me, and I try to do this every day. After a few books I said I needed to lay down. I can hear them around me as I snooze in and out of consciousness. Alyssa brought some toys in my room and played near me as the boys did whatever they did (sometimes this leads to some mischievousness, but today it worked out for me).
I heard her talking to her dolls, but was asleep. Then I felt something cold and wet near my hips. I looked up to see her using my nighttime water cup (still half full) dumping it into her strawberry house, making it a pool of sorts. Well, that woke me up. Through my grogginess, I asked her to put the cup in the sink, the house in the tub, and get a towel for my now wet mattress/sheet.
It was a little after 5pm now. Michael would be home soon. I came out to find the boys playing a computer game. I roamed a bit and then found myself on the couch watching out the window for Michael. Dinner, dinner, what can we have for dinner? In my head, I decided on grilled cheese sandwiches. Michael came home and told him how I was in my bed, but somehow I ended up on the couch, too. We both got a chuckle out of that. I love how I can tell him that I needed a nap so desperately and he just smiles. I'm sure he wishes for that sometimes, too, but never says it. We went to the kitchen and we worked together on dinner.
I've decided I just can't commit to much after 3pm now (even though I did commit to something this Friday afternoon at 3--I just had to). I want to keep pushing myself, not let my "condition" get the best of me, but my body gets mad at me when I do.
After Saturday, I will have done 6 photography shoots in a period of 10 days (my general goal/happy place/limit is 1 a month). Only one of them is an actual paid session (so in that sense, I hit my goal just fine). It's kinda funny to me, but I'm realizing I need to be realistic. I love doing this as a service for people, and I offer more than I probably should, I suppose. I just wish I could do it for everyone, I love to do it, and I love to give this gift. Two of them are swaps with other photographers, so its benefited me, too. I don't do well with charging friends. I'm not a business person. My preference is to "do business" with strangers (though they often become friends) and do it free for my friends. I wish I could do it all in that sense. Then I went and filled out an online application for NILMDTS (which is a bereavement photography service). I've planned to do it for over 2 years and today was the day? I just watched the most recent extreme makeover home edition about a photographer in this organization and it reminded me how much I'd love to serve the community in this way. But then I remind myself that as much as I like to help bless the lives of others, the most important lives are the ones in my home and maybe this isn't my season. I can always turn it down if asked, right? We'll see.
Anyway...I do a have a few pics on my camera that I need to dump on my computer, so I'll post them in a few days. Look at me--NO pics in this post!
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5 comments:
Krity,
Nice to get your thougths as well as your picts. I love you so very, very much. Will write more latter, I've spent so much time reading that I need to go to a meeting but will return ad report (on other things) later. You are the best Mom, best friend, best person I know!
Dad
I've been coming to the same conclusion lately about just not being up for anything after late afternoon. And I only have 2 other kids! You're amazing. I know exactly what you mean about not wanting your condition to hold you back. I'm so there. It's so hard. Now if only I could accomplish as much as you do with the first part of my day!
I am so there about the napping! Especially when I lay down on the couch for just a second. I feel like I can't even get up EVER! And I really enjoy your thoughts. They make me smile and laugh. :)
I don't know how I feel about a Kris post with no pictures. But I surely did appreciate your thoughts. Being the recipient of many many free photo shoots, I know what a blessing and gift you are to people. It is a true talent.
Naps are good. Very good.
I'm amazed at your ability to do all you are doing. I think It's great you are considering NILMDTS. As you probably could've guessed, I have a soft spot for those photographers. So many families I knew from the NICU were so grateful to have those pictures to remember their tiny babies that didn't stay long. Actually, I kind of have this secret goal to learn to take pictures well enough to do that someday.
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